The Place

The Place
Remembers your hands
In the turned soil, the creased pages
The teacup left just so on the counter
Grief here is not loud
It is the creak of a door you once touched …

The Place
Holds your laughter in the walls
Not echo, but residue
Like how a tree remembers spring
Through it now stands bare
We walk through it, careful not to forget …

The Place
Speaks in your language
A photograph tilted
A coat still hanging as though time stilled its breath
Even the light bends the way you used to
When you leaned into a story …

The Place
No longer waits
It has folded you gently
Into its grain, its breath, its silence
And yet
Every corner aches like a closed book mid-sentence …

#roksanatales

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Just a few days ago, my best friend’s husband passed away, so suddenly, from heart failure. There was no warning, no long illness to prepare the heart for what was to come. One moment he was part of the constant wave of their lives, and the next, a stillness settled in that no one knew how to hold. Their home feels unbearably silent now, not just in sound, but in spirit. Every corner dictates his absence. The people left behind are trying to carry on, but their movements are slower, their eyes heavier. It’s the kind of grief that doesn’t shout, it whispers, lingers, and reshapes everything …

I’ve been thinking a lot about how fragile life really is. We plan, we dream, we hope, and yet so much is out of our control. I can only pray that my best friend finds strength in her memories and comfort in the love that surrounds her now …

Dust

People keep asking, ‘How broken are you? Should we try to fix you?’
But someone please tell them you can only fix what’s in pieces …
I’ve been crushed so finely, I’ve turned to dust

#roksanatales

Endure

When clouds gather without warning
You steady my breath with your stillness
We’re brave weather, together …

When the day feels heavy with silence
Your presence makes room for light
We’re brave weather, together …

When a door closes I wasn’t ready for
You sit beside me without needing words
We’re brave weather, together …

When I fall behind the confusion of things
You slow down so I don’t feel lost
We’re brave weather, together …

Even when the air shifts, and so do we
Nothing is the same, but we remain
Because we’re brave weather, together …

Aren’t we?

#roksanatales

I♥️

Someone Like You, Somehow

She was in a car, paused at a red light, when a bus slowly pulled up beside her …

It was one of those older city buses, painted white, a bit weary-looking, as if it had seen too many monsoons and memories. Most of its windows were cracked open halfway, resting in a kind of in-between. But one window stood wide open. And there, beside it, sat a young man …

He had AirPods in, so she assumed he was listening to something, music maybe, or a podcast, or perhaps just the sound of his own solitude. His face was quiet in the way people sometimes are when they’re thinking of something that doesn’t need to be said …

There was no moon that night. Just a vast, bare sky stretched like a curtain of silence …

And she smiled to herself …

Not because she knew the boy, not even slightly. She didn’t know his name, his birthday, his favourite tea, or whether he believed in stars or horoscopes. But something about him … reminded her of someone …

A young man she had been exchanging emails with for years now …

They called each other penpals, and that’s probably what they were. Words had passed between them like little paper boats, floating across years, without a single meeting, or even a real photograph …

Though she feels that he’s ‘full of emotions’, thoughtful, sometimes a little too serious, sometimes surprisingly light. He’s a practical young lad. And though she knew so little about him, nothing really concrete, she still felt like she knew him …

And somehow, seeing this boy at the bus window stirred up the memory of one of his old lines, one she never quite forgot: ‘If someone can’t read between the lines, you gotta unfold their blinds’ …

She had laughed when she read that. She smiled again now, under the faint flicker of a streetlight. And his presence stirred something, like déjà vu, like a soul remembering a face from a dream …

Her car was still. The bus beside her, alive with passengers. The boy at the window, lost in the sky …

And she …
She almost wanted to wave, but she didn’t …
Instead, she sat there, lost in her own musings

Soulmates cross lifetimes, meeting again and again, each time in a different form.
Perhaps in one life, he was the brother her soul leaned on. In another, the friend who understood her silences. And maybe, in a life half-forgotten by time, he was the one her heart called home …

In this life, she found him in letters, digital now, yes, but no less tender. Somewhere beneath the playful tone and thoughtful replies, she wondered if fate was quietly weaving its magic …

She was still thinking …

After all, soulmates don’t always arrive with introductions …
Sometimes, they just show up at red lights …

#roksanatales

I♥️

Fragrance

Some hearts remain close
Not by presence but by pulse
Like fragrance held in memory, felt deeply
Though the flower is long gone …

#roksanatales

Withstood

It’s not possible for you to see, feel, or understand
How many times she has been unseen and unheard
And still, she chose to show up …

It’s not quite possible for you to know
What it takes to carry on
When the world never learned to make room for her pain …

You see her laugh, light up a room, carry joy in her voice
But you don’t see the weight behind it
Every smile is a decision, not a default …

It takes quiet, relentless courage
To choose hope after growing up in chaos, confusion and fear …
To rise each day and still
Believe in goodness, in light,
is a strength many will never understand …

She isn’t just surviving
She’s rewriting her story, one brave moment at a time
That’s not just resilience
That’s power …

#roksanatales

And when was the last time you truly saw someone, without needing their smile to prove they’re okay?

Tell me!

Silent Moves

Build, love, and strive in silence. Then arrive with grace, not noise; after all, why reveal your next move when the final one will speak for itself!

Are you guarding your vision or giving it away too soon?

Reflect and focus on your vision …

#roksanatales

Solace

Dear Me,

I know you’ve been holding a lot lately, not just in your hands, but in your heart. You care so deeply, and it shows in all the little ways you’re trying to help, to listen, to stay steady. I see how much thought you’re putting into what might ease someone else’s pain, how to show up not just with love, but with wisdom …

You may never have the perfect words or solutions, and that’s okay. It’s not about fixing everything. It’s about being there, consistently, quietly, with care. That kind of presence does matter. That kind of love is enough …

It’s also okay to feel tired sometimes. To question if you’re doing enough. To wonder if your efforts are really helping. Just remember: your intentions are rooted in love, and love is never wasted. Rest when you need to. Trust that showing up with honesty and patience is a healing act in itself …

Keep going gently. You’re doing better than you think …

With kindness,
Myself

#roksanatales

I♥️

The Grace in Falling Apart

Even on the days when your strength slips away and your heart feels too heavy to carry, know this, it’s okay to rest, to feel, to fall apart, because your worth was never measured by how well you pretend to be okay …

#roksanatales

The Weight of ‘Okay’

How many times I say
It’s okay
Even when I’m breaking inside …

How many times I say
It’s okay
While swallowing truths I cannot express …

How many times I say
It’s okay
And hide the tremble in my voice …

How many times I say
It’s okay
Though it was never really a choice …

How many times I say
It’s okay
Till I forget what peace feels like …

#roksanatales

On the path to reach ‘Arthur Seat’, Edinburgh

Saying ‘It’s okay’ can become an invisible shield we wear to protect others from our truth, but healing begins when we let our silence speak, and allow ourselves the grace to not always be okay

Even nature does not hide its hurt; the sky weeps, the trees shed, the earth cracks, and in doing so, it finds its way back to balance. In embracing its own cycles of pain and release, nature teaches us that healing is not found in silence, but in allowing ourselves to feel, break, and begin again. So must we …

How many times I say
‘It’s okay’
But know that it’s okay to be not okay …


Express yourself. Be vulnerable

Won’t you?

I♥️

Villimalé

After arriving in Malé, my son and I took a short ride across the water on a cheerful little troller and arrived at Villimalé, a quaint residential island just a breath away from the city, yet carrying a world of its own. We really loved it from our first glance 

At Malahini Resort, we met quite a few Bangladeshi brothers. One of them was Anwar, from Cumilla. He would often talk to us and check in to see how we were doing. The day before we were to leave the resort, he found out that we’d be spending a day in the capital, Malé. That’s when he suggested, ‘You should visit Villimalé (Villingili). It’s really beautiful, peaceful beaches, and you’ll get a glimpse of how the locals live by the sea.’

My son and I decided to follow Anwar’s suggestion. And that’s how after arriving in Malé, we took a little time to check in and freshen up at the hotel and then set off for Villingili

Vilimalé greeted us like an old friend, quiet, colorful, and full of life in the most unassuming ways. We arrived in the afternoon, when the sun had begun to soften and the island was slowly waking up from its midday rest. We strolled along the beach, letting the rhythm of the waves guide us, and quickly realized that this wasn’t just a place, it was a gentle rhythm of living.

Everywhere we looked, there were tiny glimpses of humanity, sweet nothings, really, but the kind that make a place unforgettable. We saw two youngsters sitting on a swing, lost in deep conversation, as if the world around them had vanished. Just a little further down, two elderly citizens mirrored the same scene, also on a swing, equally absorbed in their own quiet exchange. It struck me how conversation, across generations, had found its sacred space here

The island had spaces carved out for everyone. Recreational areas were sprinkled thoughtfully across the land, inviting both the young and old to step out, breathe, and belong. As the sun began its descent, we saw more and more people emerging from their homes, children playing, families gathering near the shore, neighbors leaning against colorful walls exchanging daily stories. There was a profound simplicity in it all, a culture of connection, held together by time, tradition, and tide

One thing I adored was the palette of colors, houses in hues of blue, pink, and green added a joyful softness to the streets. Local buses trundled along quietly, connecting corners of the island, making life easier not just for tourists like us, but for the people who called this place home

At one point, I stopped by a humble juice stall and, with a bit of curiosity, asked the shopkeeper if he had any old coins to exchange for my Maldivian rufiyaa. To my surprise, he smiled warmly, searched through his collection, and found some for me. It wasn’t just a kind gesture, it felt like a small act of honor, a way of saying we see you, and we care. That exchange stayed with me; you know, respect can live in even the smallest interactions

Vilimalé may be a little island, but it left a great impression on us

True that beauty lives not just in landscapes or luxury, but in everyday warmth, in shared swings and sunset talks, and in the quiet magic of simply being present, with a place, and with someone you love

If you ever visit the Maldives, don’t forget to stop by the little island of Vilimalé. Whether you’re there for a stroll, a swim, or simply to slow down, Villimalé feels like a hidden corner of everyday island life

#roksanatales

Unexpressed

Letters unread. Feelings never fully said …

#roksanatales

I♥️

Luz

Light pours in like a gentle guest
She stands where warmth meets wonder
Paint in her hand, soft power in her stance
The table glows with quiet intention
Each colour catching a piece of the day …

#roksanatales

Luz
Spanish for ‘light’ ….

I♥️

Let Go, and Let Bloom
Mindful Drawing Moments by Jian Bird Creates

It’s so satisfying to host sessions like Mindful Drawing Moments’ – what began on a quiet day with a simple act of curiosity. I invited a few willing souls to join me in the pattern artworks I usually create to calm my mind and return to myself. One participant became two, and slowly, word spread. That’s how ‘Mindful Drawing Moments’ was born: gently, organically, like something blooming in its own time …

Since then, these sessions have become spaces where self-help and creativity meet. Through themes like Kaizen, Kintsugi, Manifestation, Self-Love, and Mindfulness, each gathering offers more than just art, it becomes a mirror, a soft release, a shared breath …

Our recent sessions, themed ‘Let Go and Let Bloom,’ invited participants to reflect through drawing wildflowers, free, untamed, purposeful. Dried flowers from my mother’s garden were placed on the table, not just for beauty, but as a quiet symbol: that even after loss or struggle, something fragile and meaningful can still remain …

The way the participants picked up color, poured their thoughts into shapes, and shared reflections was deeply moving. There was no pressure to be an artist, only an invitation to be present …

We began with simple prompts, one that echoed was: ‘Never mind what they’.
Almost all said: ‘think’.
And so the letting go began …

From releasing judgment to choosing kindness, from holding space for others to forgiving ourselves, each voice in the circle added something honest and real. The drawings bloomed with color, but more importantly, so did the people …

The session closed with open hearts and softened edges. And with each event, Jian Bird Creates now offers a Certificate of Participation, a small reminder that showing up for yourself is something to honor …

Warmly,
Roksana Amelia
Artist, Jian Bird Creates

When Love Arrives

Some things are worth waiting for
Like the first drop of rain after a long dry day
Or a flower opening when the sun feels just right
Love waits too, like the moon behind a slow-moving cloud
It doesn’t rush, doesn’t shout …
But grows quietly, like roots under the ground
The heart keeps hoping, silently, day after day
Like the sea touching the sand again and again
Love returns when it’s ready
And when it does, it feels like breathing again

#roksanatales

I♥️

Always, Without Question

When you feel alone
And no one sees you
I’ll still be here
I guarantee that …

When your smile fades
And you forget your worth
I’ll remind you
I guarantee that …

When the world is cold
And you need a hand
Mine will reach out
I guarantee that …

When your voice shakes
And you can’t find the words
I’ll listen with my heart
I guarantee that …

When dreams break
And hope feels far
I’ll believe for both of us
I guarantee that …

#roksanatales

Always, without question
I♥️

Like a Note on the Wind

My Dear,

Isn’t it something, how many words we’ve shared today? After all this time, I didn’t expect it, but I think, in my deepest heart, I was waiting for your letter, your voice between the lines …

Lately, my world has felt like a storm, emotionally, mentally, a whirlwind of moments and moods. But even within that, you drifted into my thoughts today. And with that thought came a soft realisation: I was still waiting to hear from you …

Perhaps that says something, not just about timing, or connection, but about how some souls hold a kind of gravity, silently, years after years. Even from a distance, they stay. They stir something gentle, something true. How they have a quiet way of returning, just when you need to hear from them!

I once read in ‘Married to Bhutan’ how being near a river can slow you down, how just standing beside water can make you feel calm and present. That thought stayed with me. And maybe that’s why your words today felt so familiar, like the sound of water flowing, unexpected yet comforting …

With warmth always,
R

Kashmir, 2023

Tell me, do you still write letters these days?

I♥️

Still Love

In quiet, love stays
Unspoken, yet it echoes
Through the silent space …

#roksanatales

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Maybe it was one of those days when she missed someone in the middle of every chaos happening in her life, and she realised it wasn’t only emptiness, but it held love. Then she scribbled a few lines to express how the heart still keeps speaking to that significant someone …

She called it ‘Still Love’, because, love, when it’s true, doesn’t go away, it simply grows within …

I♥️

Resilience

Winds scatter her thoughts
Wild, aching, yet full of fire
She blooms in soft light …

#roksanatales

Go My Way

Today, I poured watercolours onto the paper. I didn’t control the flow. I just let them move, soft, wild, honest …

It felt like life. Sometimes, it makes no sense. But still, I move with it. I let it run through me. I follow what feels true, even if no one else understands it …

Nothing made sense today. Nothing went as planned. But I chose to go anyway.
Go right. Go forward. Go my way …

Because even when nothing goes right,
I can still go right …
In my own way …

#roksanatales

Jian Bird Creates, June, 2025

Someone

Someone said nothing and I still heard love …

#roksanatales

I♥️

The Gentle Ripples of Yes

The butterfly effect means small actions can lead to big changes. Like a butterfly flapping its wings and causing a distant storm, one quiet choice can shape our future. It shows how everything is connected, even simple moments can lead to powerful transformations over time …

Over the past year, I’ve seen this truth unfold in my own life. A single decision, to take a walk, go on a journey, or say yes to a trip, or to start painting, led to deeper healing and new strength …

There was the trip to the Maldives, a place that was never on my list. I hadn’t planned it, yet it turned out to be a gentle gift. I didn’t know I would need that much in my core, and I would love so much of the stillness of the sea, the crystal-clear color of the water, the softness of the days, it all felt like life was giving me something I didn’t know I needed …

Now, as I reflect, I see that letting myself explore the unknown began with small, quiet steps. Like the flutter of a butterfly’s wings, those moments created ripples I’m still feeling today …

#roksanatales

April, 2025, Maldives

And see, I’m learning to trust the small steps because they just might lead me somewhere beautiful …

Butterfly effect is real, I believe, and you?
I♥️

If You Ever Miss Me

Don’t miss me
But if you ever miss me
Miss me without any reason
Like the wind that comes and goes …

Miss me like reaching for your mug
And finding it warm
Not because it’s full
But because you once held it …

Miss me like the shoes by the door
Not loud, not calling, but there,
Familiar and still …

Like how sunlight lands
On the same chair each morning
Even when no one sits there, miss me like that

No need for words or stories
No searching for meaning
If you miss me, let it be quiet, like breath …

Don’t miss me
But if you ever miss me
Miss me the way silence holds a room after a song has ended
Not needing more
But remembering everything …

#roksanatales

I♥️

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So many tragedies happen in the world every day. Today, June 12th, a plane crash in Ahmedabad reminds us how unpredictable life is. If you miss someone, tell them now. Let them know they matter. What are you waiting for?

Still

Ask me how
How I keep walking through the days
With silence curled inside my chest …

Like a candle flickering in wind
Still burning in shadows
Still standing in the cold …

Like a boat on stormy water
Still floating with holes
Still rowing toward the dark …

Like a tree in winter’s grip
Still rooted in frost
Still waiting for bloom …

Like a cracked cup on a shelf
Still holding warm tea
Still passed from hand to hand …

Like a bird with torn wings
Still singing at dawn
Still watching the sky …

Ask me how
How I keep walking through the days
With silence curled inside my chest
Isn’t that what surviving means?

#roksanatales

The Blur Behind My Eyes

They don’t see the blur behind my eyes
The way light splinters into noise
How silence becomes a shield I must hold …

They don’t see the blur behind my eyes
The page swimming with shifting letters
Each sentence a mountain I climb in stillness ..

They don’t see the blur behind my eyes
Only the smile I’ve rehearsed to keep
The practiced nod that hides the storm inside ..

They don’t see the blur behind my eyes
Or the small victories I win in secret
When no one is watching, but I go on …

They don’t see the blur behind my eyes
And so I ask for grace, not answers
Compassion, not conclusions drawn too fast …

#roksanatales

Self-portrait, June, 2025

I♥️

Presence

But listen
You are allowed to take up space
To speak and not explain
To choose and not apologise
To rest without guilt

The world does not collapse when you say no
You are not unkind for drawing a line
You are not selfish for wanting more

There is power in your presence
Even when it is firm
Even when it is loud
Even when it is yours

#roksanatales

May, 2025, Oxford Circus, London

What part of you have you been quieting, and is it time to let it speak?

I♥️

Hiraeth

You live in the hush between footsteps
Where city streets hold the calm of your stride
And your coffee becomes a quiet ritual
No rush
Just the rhythm of your own becoming …

The world moves, but you are not chasing it
Shopfronts blur behind you like pages already read
Your strength wraps around your soul
Here, and now, in the heart of the everyday life …

#roksanatales

Anchoring everything without demand, May, 2025, Oxford Circus, London

Hiraeth/ Welsh
(/ˈhɪər.aɪθ/ or /ˈhɪər.æθ/)
A homesickness for a place you can’t return to, or that never was. It’s a deep longing, part memory, part desire, for something lost, or something just out of reach.

A peaceful presence touched by unspoken depth

Like Poetry in Passing

Every day, I travel a familiar path through this part of East London, from Snaresbrook’s Hermon Hill Road toward Goodmayes, often by bus. Before the journey begins, I wait quietly near the Wanstead station, where the city unfolds like the first lines of a beloved poem. I watch people drift in and out of the morning, some rushing, others strolling, each absorbed in their own little universe. The rhythm of their movements, the fragments of conversation, the laughter, even the silence, they all stir something in me.

I take pictures as a ghost photographer, quietly capturing moments that might otherwise vanish. There’s a delicate poetry in the shifting light and long shadows, in the reflections on bus windows, in the way sunlight falls across the pavement or lingers on a shop sign. Sometimes, a smell from a bakery or coffee shop floats in the air and feels like comfort. The shops along the Wanstead path are as alive as the people, restaurants bustling with breakfast prep, a florist arranging colors into bouquets, a gallery with its newest display catching the eye of a passing child. Everything is vivid, but not loud.

And yet, amid all the brightness, I sometimes notice someone who seems distant, or heavy with thought. There’s a pause in my chest when I see them. Loneliness wears many faces, and it appears even here, in this lively, fragrant, light-drenched place. I wish, in those moments, that no one ever had to feel alone. But I understand that they do. We all do. Everyone needs someone, at every stage of life.

This stretch between Snaresbrook and Goodmayes, through Wanstead, past the little park on one side and the tapestry of shops on the other has become more than a route. It’s a quiet collection of fleeting stories, of the poetry that lives in passing moments

I am simply here, watching, witnessing, and sometimes framing the world with a silent lens, hoping to hold onto the feeling that makes someone want to read a line twice ….

#roksanatales

London, May, 2025

Tell me about how much you like street photography?

Empathy

In the most vulnerable moment
As I painted these magnolias
I felt the quiet plea for understanding ….

Breathing peace, calm and mindfulness
Into each gentle stroke, I imagined a mind in turmoil
Needing patience more than correction …

That’s a healing feeling
To meet another’s struggle with still hands and an open heart
As if cradling a flower that blooms differently, but no less beautifully …

🌺

#roksanatales

As I painted the magnolia in watercolor in midst of the most vulnerable part of my life, I felt it to my core and each petal reminded me of how delicate and unique every person is, specially those living with mental challenges.

This artwork and poem are a reminder to approach others with patience, gentleness, and empathy, just as we would care for a blooming flower

Can we learn to hold each other with that same tenderness?

Also, what is the true meaning for empathy to you? What actions can we take for being a true empathetic human being?

14th May, 2025
Goodmayes, London

Sabr

If healing means honoring each small win with love, then yes, I’m all in.

Life lately has felt like a handful of mismatched puzzle pieces, confusion, mistakes, fatigue, sudden changes, and that quiet weight of uncertainty. The Edinburgh trip, though planned in a hurry, reminded me that not all plans bring peace. Sometimes, even with good intentions, things get messy, emotionally, physically, logistically. It was far from perfect. And yet we pulled it off. Safely. Together.

Somewhere on the train ride back to London, while everything inside me felt scrambled, I painted tulips. Just small strokes. Just a quiet orchestra of colour, blooming gently across paper. This little painting feels like a symbol now, not of the trip itself, but of surviving the chaos around it. Of still choosing to make something tender while in motion.

Healing, I’m learning, isn’t about always getting it right. It’s about showing up for myself anyway, in illness, in confusion, in exhaustion. It’s about pausing to notice the small things: a safe return, a single flower, a quiet breath. That’s where the love lives. In small, steady steps forward

And today, that’s enough

I♥️

#roksanatales

4th May, 2025
Edinburgh to London

Little tulips in a beautiful way
On a train journey from Edinburgh to London

Be spirited, hopeful and optimistic, no matter what!

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Sabr (صبر) (Arabic) – Patience and quiet endurance through hardship; steadfastness in the face of trials