Ya’ Aburnee

She used to be calm,
But now she’s even calmer …

She walked slowly,
But now she walks even slower …

She talked freely with the right person,
But now
She barely talks at all …

She mingled happily with her best friend,
But now
She avoids everyone …

She expressed herself openly,
But now
She keeps everything inside …

She used to dream of the stars
But now
She barely looks at the sky …

She used to dance in the rain
But now
She stays inside, dry …

She used to laugh with abandon
But now
Her smiles are rare and shy …

She used to sing her heart out
But now
Her voice is just a whisper …

She used to chase after adventures
But now
She hesitates to even try …

She used to believe in magic
But now
Her wonder seems to die …

She lost her beloved, her heart’s anchor,
Now she drifts, untethered and forlorn …

Grief has woven shadows in her days,
And joy, once bright, feels tattered and torn …

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Ya’ Aburnee/ arabic
(n.) lit. ‘may you bury me’
a declaration of one’s hope that they’ll die before another person because of how unbearable it would be to live without them

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Have you ever felt like these for anyone?

16 thoughts on “Ya’ Aburnee”

  3. I think your words express the rawness of real pain and loss, how a person withdraws, loses the ability to find joy or see the beauty around them. Sadness and depression walk hand in hand and can make a soul feel as if they are drowning.

    I hope this isn’t anything you are experiencing.

    Good thoughts to you to start your week, Roksana. 🙂

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    1. Thank you Richard for your thoughtful response ….

      Capturing those emotions was important to me. It’s a difficult topic, but I hope it helps others feel less alone in their struggles ….

      Yes, ‘as if they are drowning’ …
      You’ve described it perfectly!

      I appreciate your kind thoughts. Wishing you a great weekend soon!

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  5. I have never experienced this type of grief and I hope to not ever do so but at times I dwell on it and its very sad to contemplate what it’d be like. There would be a large void that might be difficult to crawl out of. Life would lose its magic and luster. Makes me weep, just thinking of it. — I dont wish to be without a bounce in my step and a strong beat in my heart.– but not sure i’d wish to be buried in advance. Do you feel this way, Amy?

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    1. Yes, a large void!

      Stephie, I understand your feelings. The thought of such a loss can be overwhelming and heartbreaking. It’s important to cherish the moments we have and find strength in our connections with loved ones …

      I’m here for you if you ever want to talk more about this …

      And yes, I do feel this way sometimes! That’s what inspired me to write …

      Love,
      Amy

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  7. Yes I have felt this way and more than once in my long life, but we continue on and the grief period blends into a more reflective, perhaps more compassionate life. Those who have known grief and pain are more equipped to be compassionate. Thank you for saying this so beautifully..

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    1. It’s comforting to know that grief can transform into compassion and reflection over time …

      Thank you for sharing your experience and wisdom. Your presence on my blogposts and your thoughtful words mean a lot to me …

      Thank you Karima
      Have a blessed life ✨

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